Hey friends & family,
This post is going to be a bit different from the rest. It’s going to be more about me, and by me, I mean yew too; in hopes that yew can relate to what I’m saying.
I realized a few weeks ago I hadn’t evaluated my past or planned ahead in a long time. For what reason? Focusing on pleasing everyone else. Constantly putting others needs in front of yours is not selfless, it’s stupid. Really stupid. I have always been a compassionate person. I absolutely love making other people feel welcomed, wanted and enlightened. I truly believe I will make a career of that in some way, shape or form. I had lost focus on something I care most about, my education. I never took the time to sit down and reevaluate if I really wanted to be a nurse the rest of my life. I was also making less time for another one of my passions, music. Over the last 8 months family and relationship issues have left me frazzled and unfocused. I literally burnt myself out mentally and emotionally. I was often too ashamed to talk about my own problems with people who really cared. Don’t ever be ashamed. Talk about what hurts. Don’t let that stuff linger. I learned the hard way. As time passed by quickly; I was just going through the motions of what I thought I wanted to do, thought being the key word. It’s hard to take time to evaluate when you’re wrapped up in trying to please and help everyone else. A few weeks ago, I reevaluated for the first time in a long time. Wow, did I need that. I dropped out of the nursing program I was in. I felt like a weight was lifted from my shoulders. I did something that I knew was truly beneficial for me; without caring about what anyone else would think. It felt great to make a decision that I was at peace with. Just in case yew were wondering, I am going back to school next semester to start my degree in communications, in other words I’ll be in school til 2030 lol. All jokes aside; always make time for yew.
To all my friends I would like to say this: Happiness is a choice. I found myself being dependent on another person for my happiness. Not only was it taxing on them, but once the relationship had run it’s course, I felt like nothing. My wall to lean had been broken down, leaving me in a pool of sorrow. How to rebound? Go back to doing what yew loved to do before yew met them. Hang out with people who will compliment yew and bring yew up. It’s okay to be sad and sulk for a bit, but life is far too short to not be happy. I don’t believe in blocking someone out, but create some space from that person yew once relied on. It’s best for the both of yew in the long run. Once yew attain this inner happiness again, yew can start being proud of yourself. LOVE YOURSELF FIRST!
I will leave yew with these 3 things: Rely on no one for your own happiness. Reflect, take time to look at what your building/doing. Make sure that yew want to continue this path, yew only get one crack at life folks. Finally, plan and try to foresee where yew want to be in the future. An idea is just that, an idea. Once you envision and plan with that idea, then it can become a reality.
Tell someone yew love them today.
Just in case yew forgot I was a rapper. New music before turkey day; gobble gobble.
Be easy scums.